Kate Gosselin: I've Lost Control in My Life

"I just wanted to be myself, my family," she said

Reality TV mom Kate Gosselin said she yearns for the days when she could just be a regular mother.

"I've lost a lot of control in my life," she said.

Gosselin, 34, told crowd at the second annual Cleveland Women's Show that she wished she could simply care for her eight children without the glare of the media spotlight bearing down on her.

"At the beginning of all of this, you've heard me say before, I didn't want fans gawking, I didn't want people gawking, I just wanted to be myself, my family," she said to the group on Friday.

"I have learned, I appreciate your support, I need you, I love you, thank you."

Meanwhile, ex-husband Jon was bar hopping in New York City over the weekend, hitting up after parties Sunday night following MTV's Video Music Awards, according to Usmagazine.com.

He was spotted partying at Avenue and at the Hotel on Rivington on the Lower East Side.

"My daughter called me and wanted Taylor [Swift]'s autograph," Jon bragged to Us. 

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